Bah, tonight was difficult. I’ve struggled with anxiety (sorta low grade panic attacks that come out of nowhere) for the past 6ish years. I think my dysfunctional drinking got way worse since this came about because it would numb me enough to get through most episodes…come home feeling anxious, drink wine until it goes away.
Tonight was the first major anxious episode recently (damnit, I was really hoping alcohol had caused them! I definitely have been less anxious overall recently). Basically I get low blood sugar and this causes me to be jittery which leads to a place that getting my blood sugar up doesn’t get me out of.
Anyyyyyways, I really really REALLY wanted a drink (or 10) to make it go away! Instead we went out for Indian (yeay, carbs), went for a walk with our dogs in misty rain (there’s nothing like watching all 3 dogs fall in the stream…one after another…dorks….to cheer you up) and then I went to the gym to swim for a LONG time. ALL the tricks in the book. Sigh.
That’s how you do it! Just redirect and keep moving. I miss swimming, my gym doesn’t have a pool:(
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Keep going! You are doing amazing 🙂 Hoping you woke up feeling extremely proud of yourself for getting through the night without the wine, you had a fabulous plan and executed it with gusto! Well done 🙂
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Good for you! You made a great choice. There’s something about the rhythm of swimming that is so soothing . And today isn’t a new Day 1!
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Yes, doesn’t 35 sound so much better than 1?
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Absolutely!
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Well done for getting through, and so close to a full moon (do others struggle with hair and madness on that day?). And I am DEFINITELY making a list that says 1. Carbs 2. Dogs 3. Swimming for when I get an urge for a glass of wine. Haha
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Hah, I should post that list all over my house. The cure for anything!
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I really hope anxiety doesn’t get as bad for me as it did during my last stint at sobriety. I struggle with it anyway but for some reason it got worse during withdrawal. I have better tools in place this time though xx
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